You smoke? Why?

Hello and goodbye. I am here to post my final blog relating to Champix. I have some excellent news to report...I HAVE NOT SMOKED, AND I DO NOT INTEND TO EVER AGAIN. I am a non-smoker. WOO-FREAKIN-HOOOOO. I am not on any sort of cessation program, nor am I on Champix anymore (2 mos now)...I am done! Over! Finished! I will end by saying this: If I can do it, anyone can. I believe that with all of my heart. I was a heavy smoker, and I have quit. Yes, I eat more. Yea, I still think about it. Yes, there are times after I eat a big meal that I think about how good it would be to have a cigarette - and that is insanity. But, there you have it. It works. It's rough - but not too rough. AND IT WORKS.
Enjoy and best of luck.

Kelly

Finish Line

Good morning peeps! So here we are at the finish line of the crazy drug CHAMPIX. I do have a bit to report on my weaning off process, and intend to continue until things are "well" again. The good news is that I have not smoked since Sept 27, 2012. I feel like I can breathe, and I am able to be around cigarettes and not be tempted. The bad new is that Champix is a very difficult drug to come off of. In saying this, I shall explain. Approximately 3 weeks ago I "dosed down" to .5ml in the morning and .5ml in the evening...it was then that I saw the inner monster. I felt as though I was in a constant state of PMS...except it was amped up a bit more than regular PMS. Well, this morning I had a good bout of tears...and stopped the Champix. I am done...a non-smoker....I did it.....I DID IT! I don't want to chance feeling any worse by staying on it, and I am off for the next couple of days, so I figured I should cut this shit out now. I really haven't had a whole lot of "bad stuff" to report throughout this journey, however I will warn anyone that I know that if they decide to jump on the Champix wagon, that getting off the shit is a miserable experience. I hope and pray that I don't turn to the "smokes".
Until tomorrow.....

Weaning...

Hello again. Okay, so I admit that this blog thing has lost it's lustre...it's beginning to feel like work to post again, so I guess it's a good thing that I am coming to my final days of Champix. Is it weird that I am just as leery coming off this mood altering drug, as I was going on it? I keep reading the side effects of coming off the drug, and I am a little scared. The one noticeable withdrawal symptom is irritability. the mood is quite comparable to not having a cigarette. I find myself becoming a bit short tempered at home, and I am hoping that this doesn't last! I am "weaning" off the drug, as I was told that this helps the irritability. So, hey that's where I am today...take no shit kind of moods. That is actually out of character for me....lets hope this fades as the days go on.

Till next time....where's my broom?

Day Nineteen...and Everyone IS Still Alive!

Hello all,

Well here I am at day 19, and still smoke free thanks to the wonder drug CHAMPIX. It feels sort of surreal to me that I have been able to refrain from nicotine products, as well as coffee - and everyone is still alive and well.  I have given up both, and I am not experiencing the mood altering affects I thought I might. I have my days of feeling "down", but I think those are just the facts of life; there are going to be ups and downs and all around on this journey. Today is a good day...yesterday was as well. I am finding that when I experience a little stress, it seems to be a bit more exaggerated, but since I am looking out for this, I am able to control my reaction. I have been practicing a lot more of the deep breathing exercises that I preach about to my clients, and well, all I can say is that they DO work..now that I can actually breath.
So there you have it. I am still smoke free, everyone is alive, and I am conscience of the mood fluctuations but they are minimal and controllable.

Until tomorrow.... Have a great day.

Home on a Wednesday...

So, here I am again; and lucky you, I am not grouchy today :) I guess we are all entitled to a bad day every now and then right? I am deciding to believe that that is all it was - a bad day, and had nothing to do with the Champix. It was a full moon, and you know what they say about full moons right? Well, here is what I say about full moons - FULL MOON MIND FUCKERY. Period. That's all I am going to say :)

so, I am on day 12 people...NO SMOKING IN 12 DAYS! Do I still want to smoke? Sometimes. I think the important thing to recognize at this point, is that it is all in my head now. I no longer have ANY craving for nicotine, and the physical withdrawal is non-existent. Wow right?

So now what? Well.. now I am researching how exactly to get off this crazy drug without well, going crazy! Funny how this blog has come full circle. I should also tell you that I  have had to change a few more things in the last couple of weeks - namely COFFEE. Yes, I have given up the gold. I no longer need caffeine; although I do think of it often. I have tried to drink it, and it tastes like it is missing something...yeah, it's missing it's wing man...SMOKE. So, I have had to kiss it goodbye.

I am also sleeping a little better since starting the Valerian Root. Hmm...it almost seems too good to be true.

Stay tuned!

P!nk - Blow Me (One Last Kiss) (Color Version)

I've had a shit day.....no kisses required....just blow me ;0)

Bad Day...

Okay so this IS a bad day, and it's not even 9:30am. I'm not sure what is going on, but I am feeling a bit useless, weapy, irritable, and short tempered. I am in a "take no shit" kind of mood. I'm not sure what has triggered this, but I am pretty sure it is due to the emotionally draining day I had yesterday along with the fact that I have had no sleep in a few days. I'm going to give it a bit of time, and come back later....

Till the sun rises.....